Gene Pool

The firs flush of biology caught me at 30. I really desperately wanted to have my girlfriends child. After much googling i came to the conclusion that unless i was some sort of right philanthropist or the beneficiary of one, with access to all sort of high experimental scientific types, it was not going to happen in my lifetime. So that washed thru my life leaving faint traces of regret and sadness for the human potential i would never get to meet. A few more years went by and the desire to have a child has again reignited within me. Since i am to be the mum, i have decided my poor girlfriend's job is to procure the sperm!
It is funny what becomes important when you have a choice. You don't fall in love on the bases of your partners family medical history, however the focus changes when you can actually choose who is to provide the sperm.  My poor male friends are all running for cover! I guess it must really make them questions how they feel about the whole parenthood thing, specially since this child will not be theirs at all.  One thing i am really sure off is that i am not looking to have a third parent.  But i would like them to be available if the child chooses to know who they are. I guess it is what's called a known donor. A mate of mine is going thru the process of checking himself to be my potential donor. The only hitch i can see is that he lives a whole 1500 kms away. My girlfriend thinks this is a plus as she is really against interference from the donor. i don't know if it will work out due to the shear logistics of it. i am not planning to inseminate till the end of the year. Again choice has reared its hydra head and we are going to try for an October child.  So in the mean time i am madly trying to figure out when i am fertile, when i ovulate, as there is not point in getting the little fellows to the door if there is no one to answer them!. I got this thing from ebay, its called Maybe Baby.  Its like a little torch with a lens at then end of it. You put spit on it let it dry and hey presto, you can tell if you have high levels of estrogen in you spit or not. I think the theory goes that if you do then you are ovulating. I am finding that i have high levels of estrogen at all sorts of time. Pretty much from when i start bleeding till after i have ovulated... So i am having to use other methods as well, such taking a look at my cervical mucus for elasticity, and charting my periods.  I really should be doing the basal body temperature as well but i am rather lazy when it comes to it!  The thing about all this data is that you can then have even more choice!!!  According to this book i got, <insert details here> male sperm is fast and short lived, female sperm is slower but hardier. Armed with this they have arrived at the conclusion, backed by imperical evidence that if one was to inseminate a 2-3 days before ovulation, all the spermy that survive to the arrival of the egg would be girl ones. hey presto you get a girl!

Why i hate work

Now you may think this is a no brainer however the need to vent is high so here it goes. I hate the way people get mad at you when you are the messenger of bad news. At least with the customers it can be expected, hell we are messing with their livelihood, but to cope it from fellow workmates, has a bit of a sting. If only they did their job properly i wouldn't have to return their work!!!  :| And really if your get an email signed, for any further queries, please see team leader, you think they'd get the hint!!  Really.... I hate work.

Trial run

If only you could have a trial run of the things that mattered. If this email blogg thing dont work i can just delete it. I wont be forced to live with it or its consequences for the rest of my life.... I wish more things had trial periods.
I got a pair of runners and they fit all wrong, took them back and got a different size, which was all wrong in different ways, so took them back and got another pair. Lucky third time round, these fit perfect.  Magickal number three. My first life i was a live for the moment kind of one. Second one was all about studying for a better future, to make my mark on the world. I am not sure that my third one has started fully yet. I feel in transition still.  I plan on having a child.  They say they change your life so much that it could very well mark the start of my third life. But i am trying to live it now. My third life is about living for the moment without loosing the long range perspective... I have lost count of all the lists and plans I've laid for the things i want to achieve. Most of them start with 1. To loose some weight or 1. To get fit...  I am still working on that one :P  Others i have achieved on some levels, like finishing uni, making art, etc...  Of late i have decided that if it is that important to me i really should do something about it. So i have given up my motorcycle and i am making myself ride my bicycle to work every day. Its 8km each way so even if i catch the train home, i still got in a good 1/2hr exercise for the day....  Too bad about the rain!!! Still, i feel better just for trying.

Why i hate blogging..........

Wrote all this cool stuff yesterday. Deep, meaningfull stuff. Unburdened my heart and gained new perspective onlife. Hit the spell check button and just like that it was all gone... Pixeldust...fucken hate tht.

Why i hate not knowing....

I guess i find it difficult to listen. Why cant is just know. I would definetly put my hand up for brain enhancement ala Matrix...

Ok so here goes my first blog. I love free things!! Have only been on this thing for a few minutes and i found this:

You Were An Owl

You are stealthy and secretive - no one knows the true you.You are a seeker of freedom, and you are comfortable with your dark side.