What a glorious day we had today. We tookBit to the beach and sat down a while. She is so funny, she loves digging a little hole to the wet sand and flopping in it... :)
Ready to with an other egg. Text the donor for a meeting tomorrow. Hopefully he'll be there tomorrow. We are trying for two days in a row like they do at the clinic... :| Crossing my fingers!!

Granny

Hmm its been such a long time since i last saw her...What would i say to you face to face? We talk on the phone sometimes, and it feels somewhat ackward, i dont know what to say. I dont think it is just about her... I really dont feel like i have a lot to say sometimes, words just do seem so hard to share. I wnted to know the name of the book Monkey Magic is based on...no one knew at work...except Di who at least found out!! She was clever, i like clever :)
Sometimes i just feel such an island, i find it hard to grt the motivation to row over to someone else. Words, sounds, shape ideas...
Anny the doner showed up again. Got a text day 5 of my cycle. Too late to start clomid again. It was sooooo full on when i ws on it for the last two months and not knowing ig Anny the donor was going to be around, i decided not to take it...Lets hope i can coast on the last two months worth of drugs!! My blood test showed higher levels of whatever so stronger indications of ovulation....I dream about this human that is going to join us...I guess that is what is on my mind and i dont feel like i can talk to her/them about this so i have nothing to say...I am glad i have yoga.

Late August gathering

Met at mums before they left for Chile to chat and say bye. We miss you Tish!

Santiago, Chile

P7160600, originally uploaded by ScooterGirlFly.

It is just so cool tht my little sis is back in the old country!! I remember this plaza, we had our photo taken here. We came with my family via scooter we were in a trolley that was tied to the back of it!! It was hot and summer and the light was really bright. The guy who took the photo had a am old camera set up on a tripod and you had to hold still for ages, invariable the photos were blurry...He had a cape over his head and a mini developing studio in there too. I was like 6 or 8. Whole life time ago... Ah!! Tish! Is it strange being there on your own!?

Asian grocery stores

One thing i like about shopping at Grocery stores are the labels. So colorful and funny and like friendly!! This one is for chopped fish in sauce! haha!!

Loving Yoga

Hmmmm.... Haaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally seem to be managing to get up at 6.30am and do some yoga before work!! Ha ha!! Got to laugh, i have been meaning to do this since i did a yoga intensive in Feb with YOUNGA yoga guys! I just never seemed to get it together... But this last two weeks i have managed on average 3 times that plus class means i am getting a little bit stronger!! Its nice. About a week ago i managed to get out to North Gong beach for a surf and i have to say that getting up and paddling for waves was not nearly as hard as it used to be :) Still too cold but! Ice cream headaches every time i ducked a wave!! Ouch!! The above shot is from out on the breakers looking out to the beach, a familiar sight for some.....
So at home i am doing DVD's by Baron Baptist He has a drawling American accent which i don't mind but others may find annoying. Love the vinyasa flow :) Borrowed some books off Russell written by the guys from Synergy Yoga and read up on the knee chapter and the pregnacy/womens issues chapter and the diet chapter of course!.... I am trying to keep my leg muscles active through out all the poses strengthening the knee support and seems to be doing the trick. Also went to see Bret and he seems to have done wonder in unwinding my ankle which has freed up my knee as well, so my left knee is feeling heaps more stable and pain free. Still too shy to try running on it...but went for a long walk to the beach yesterday and only had minor temporary discomfort, nothing long lasting so maybe just maybe i am finally getting to the edge of the woods on the knee issue....Still far to late to re join my soccer dream!! Oh well.....As for the getting pregnant I am still not... This is my firs cycle on clomid and i have to say i am feeling things a lot more intensely as i get to day 28 of my cycle..never been so emotional Still too early to do a pregnancy test so still don't know if this time was the one.... So just being mindful in yoga to be aware of which poses i will have to keep an eye out for when i do get pregnant and even for the times when I'm menstruating. It was interesting to note that inverted poses are not recommended for when you are bleeding nor deep twists... Good to know. one of the girls in class is pregnant... Couldn't help being jealous... Found it hard to keep focused and non reactive... i think that Vipassana will be a good thing for me, weather this pregnancy thing work or not...
Miss my Tish she seems to be having a blast though so the more power to her!!!!!!!!

Baby Dalek

Well here she is! The Honda Elite 250. She made it all the way from Blacktown to Wollongong on the F6 and did not even blink :)
Wolf is still struggling with the online test for her L plate. But hopefully she will get it soon enough. Pretty slick for a baby Dalek!

The wait

Well the two week wait has 7 days left to run. Will it take this time!? Who knows. In the mean time i have managed to keep loosing weight despite my knee issues so i bought my self a Abercrombie jacket :) The shame is that well i have bored shoulders and bugger although it fits it is too small. I could talk myself into fitting it but it just doesn't so i am selling it on ebay

Still it was nice to fit into a 12 for the first time in ages!! :)

Upset too soon :)

Ok so i thought it was ll misery, only to dicover that i had not missed my LH surge at all and was in fact on track to ovulate on SAT/SUN. The problem was with my tally of days and started counting to early. Bugger. However it all meant that i was able to hook up with Anny the anonymous donor and have an insemination bang on ovulation day. Busy day but. We then drove to outer Sydney and picked up a scooter!! I then drove it all the way to the Gong. Some people are saying that i shook out all the sperm... Haha i think if that was possible more girls would own bikes and ride them after sex!! I don't think long distance scooter ridingcounts as a contraceptive (lol)
Any how 2 week wait now to see if we scored a bulls eye on that royal egg. It ws a beautiful night and a full moon, so hopefully this time was the one!

Ovulation blues

Feeling cheated. I have an operation to supposedly remove something that was affecting my ovulation cycles. And i haven't ovulated... Cycle length has gone crazy and i don't know where i am Maybe i missed it as last cycle was only 22 days. Maybe this cycle is going to be longer and i haven't ovulated yet... ARGH!! I want to know what is going on!! :( Gynecologist reckoned we were all systems go BUT ever since the operation my cycles have been odd :(
Bugger!!

NewcastleStorms

So what do you do when there is a severe weather warning and a boat has run aground?! GO LOOK!

Knee Blues

I just really have had the worst run ever :( (IMHO!) I twisted R knee being careless on at the gym...3 wks of no running or cycling or soccer followed...then gyno scheduled me for day surgery so i decided t since i could not run anyhow, to go and have an ingrown toe nail cut out. Ouch Ouch!! They day surgery put me out of action for 2 weeks, it allowed for my tummy and my toe to heal somewhat!! Then finally feeling fit and ready to run i went to soccer training. I run and kicked the ball and generally had a blast! Did not notice any disconfort on my knees However an hour or two after i had got home my L knee swelled up and got all stiff :( I took ibuprofen pills for 2 days with minimal effect :( Knee is still feeling tight and sore :( Cant decide if to see a physio or the osteopath. Ever since the surgery i have just been feeling all twisted and sore... When am i gonna come back to running!! I have given up returning to soccer this season as it seems my knees are not up carrying me around.

Vipassana Meditation

Have been reading The art of living on Vipassana meditation. Wondering if i could do a 10 day retreat. My girlfriend reckons i could not manage :) She has a point, i talk for a living! I am glued to the phone or online or talking to someone :)
But the idea of developing wisdom seems like a good thing. So many times a feel emotions wash thru me and take me places i dint maybe want to go. It would be nice. So i thought i would give it a go. Try and get my yoga practice happening again, and start meditating a bit at the end of the practice. Thing is i find it hard to sit for long periods of time comfortably. So i thought i would make my self a yoga bench, this site has easy to follow instructions :) This site is also nice for everything Buddhist .
Still not well enough to run or surf or ride my bike but maybe gentle yoga and meditation will get me going again.
Collected DNA again today who knows maybe this take it's a goer! (let you know in 15 days!!)

convalescing

Here i am convalescing. I thought how funny, since i only had minor surgery. This is day 5 since i had a laparoscopy for a ovarian cyst. So i think walk to shops, test the old body. Five hours later i am still feeling nauseous! :) There you go nothing to it just sit and relax for a few more days :D Hard work. I want to be better already playing soccer going to the gym. I miss my soccer team soccer!!

life goes on...

Well it is now May and i am still not pregnant :) It is taking a normal amount of time but i still feel like it is taking too long!! But i am impatient at the best of times.
As it turns out a cyst lives on my right ovary so i am having surgery on Thu to get it out. First time for me at the hospital. I was getting very anxious about it. Then i decided to have my ingrown toe nail cut out and now i am cured of the nerves. The procedure was done under local anesthetic and i nearly run out of the surgery!! It hurt so bad i cried like a little kid!!
Well after this experience i am not worried about Thursday at all as at least i will be under entirely! Hopefully after that it will not come back and i can start on the Clomophine. This is supposed to help regular my ovulation. Lets hope it works, although with increased ovulation there is a small chance of multiple births!! Well will see. In the mean time i am looking forward to loosing the cyst as i have a feeling it has been with me for a while, and i will be glad to have it gone.